Tuesday, March 30, 2004
nownow..lets see. i've got POA lotsa questions to complete. Amaths not alot but i think all i dono one..AN A BIOLOGY TEST ON A CHAPTER I HATE ALOT. whywhywhywhyyyyy..sob i hate tests. i hate sch! i repeated it ten over times liao i know. but sigh i think i also feel that im getting more stupid. like qiutin..but hey shes wayway better than me! bah anyway i shouldnt compare with OTHERS.
wweee got soo much things ta do. as a student,
WHY CANT ADULTS UNDERSTAND. leave books in sch also cannot..they dunch noe how heavy it is! and litter drop also write lines. WADS THE USE? no brains eh..copy lines got use anot. i mean
frankly, it wun like help u to STOP littering. anyway also not purposely litter one. STUpig pid. ahha AND copycopy wad tb..nv bring book also copy one bloody chapter. FOR WAD? argh i dun understand life man. sickening shit.
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7:56:00 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
haha i finally showed my mommie my progress card yesterday night. and she was like why u fail? and so on.. =( its not like i
wanted to fail!anyway, it took me damn bloody long to actually pass her a stupid card. lol my brother also came out of his room to talk to me. he's always so nice. i mean hes always telling me reality and sensible stuff! i love him soooo muchie. =p
anyway today was bORE RING. had sch had maths had band. and OH YA..today got one amaths test. FLUNK LIAO LA. zzz i expected it anyway. hahaha totally prepared to fail. serious! but nvm im really trying hard.. yepyep. byee pompom time.
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7:51:00 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
today iis 27. twenty seven of March. that makes today our fourth month anniversary..i mean Eug and I. wow.. its been long. hmm today wasnt fun at all. not even a teeny bit? it sucked. went chinese which was totally boring. went band but i played like shit. the only nice thing was i had a nice talk with Q. i mean we really jux chatted and the good old days..fun and sweet and all. haha got one part we tok until we wanna cry. i miss liyu. i miss juxlove. i miss us. i miss 2/5. i miss the old sch. i miss everything we did. i miss dem all. CAN I HAVE IT BACK AGAIN? no. sob. nobody will know how i feel. im not gonna think about it again.
anyway today jux sucked alot. jux SUCKED. haaaai these days' been sucky. borE ring
Lene Marlin - You Werent There
She came home just won the game
Long time struggle she fulfilled her dream
All she wanted was to make you proud
You weren't there
He had his birthday a few days ago
He got some presents, a big party too
And there were congratulation calls
As the years before
Not ever one from you
You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this everyday
They see you in their heads
Wander if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again
She cut herself on a piece of paper
It didn't hurt but she saw the blood
She could need that embrace
You weren't there
Did he have to cry louder?
Would that make you hear him?
You see his heart was broken
For the first time
You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this everyday
They see you in their heads
Wander if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again
Cannot turn back time
A wish yet to come true
They're making up these stories about you
You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this everyday
They see you in their heads
Wander if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again
And miss you once again
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9:34:00 PM
Friday, March 26, 2004
Oh yea. i got back my progress card. its sucked like hell. i failed 6 in total!?!? both test 1 and test 2. its so demoralising for me..im so stupid. im getting MORE stupid. this cannot go on..i dun wan it to. please let me do well. i really wanna do well. but im a lazy shit! i cant study i c a n n o t.
great. im crying again..this sucks okay. hate myself. hate lyn.
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8:06:00 PM
ARgh. today sucked alright? i mean it REallie sucked. i hate school. OMG A LIGHTNING JUX STROKE. OH MY FREAKING GOD. I SAW IT BRIGHT AND CLEAR. SO LOUD. SO SCARY!!! omgomgomgomgogmg..can u imagine? being strike by lightning. will it hurt? or will u just DIE like tat? hmm i wun noe. neither will anyone else..haha anyways i was saying i hate today! 26 March 2004. sigh..why cant pple understand how i feel sometimes? its sad to know that even e person closest to me cant understand me. =`( feel like breaking down. " its jux as breakdown..jux let me cry..i'll cry when i wan to." nice song. life totally sucks sometimes. and i mean T-O-T-A-L-L-Y.
Jealous feelings are usually at their strongest
when you are newly in love and do not feel
secure in your partner’s affection.
Jealousy is part of early love and can be very
flattering when your partner seems constantly on
edge at the thought of losing you. Jealousy in
its early stages can be healthy too in the sense
that it makes you feel passionate, wanting to be
close to your partner. Happy couples in the
early stages sometimes play this slightly
dangerous game of flirting with other people
precisely for this reason. Possessiveness and
jealousy are normal features of adolescent
relationships.
As jealousy is so much of early love, at the
beginning it is often welcomed. But this changes
when the relationship settles down. Jealousy
that continues suggests a lack of trust in the
relationship. The jealousy that once brought the
couple together now starts to create
difficulties.
Jealousy makes you behave in ways that can harm
your relationship. Unless you are able to
understand the reasons and feelings that
contribute to making you feel extreme jealousy
you are unable to change the situation.
Love involves jealousy. But do not let jealousy
destroy the love.
took it from friendster. Winda posted this..its so true! jealousy is one hell of a complicated thing man..
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5:19:00 PM
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Ignorance is bliss. yeeea i totally agree sometimes. if u ignore smth, den nothing will happen! hahaha good way eh? haixhaixhaix..im so sick. sick of LIFE. why why why is everyone so fake..okay not EVERYONE. but some pple really are super fake. i cannot stand it anymore! its like why must they try and be someone else when theyre not? WHY!! irritating posers. hahahah maybe im one of dem. LOL
sometimes i agree im like a piece of shit. mebbe even WORSE. but at least i know i am..those pple out there are like omg i dono wad to say. argh who cares. $*@!$!# anyways this song's nice..
Somewhere Out There - Some Disney song.
Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale moonlight,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.
Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.
And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky!
Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then we'll be together,
Somewhere out there,
Out where dreams
Come true...
go d/l if u waann..ciao. go bathe and eat liao.
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7:16:00 PM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
i always very lazy to bathe. hahah den drag n drag until sometimes gonna midnight den bathe..cool? lol but i realised that actually bathing is a quick 'process'! very fast over..shampoo hair. put conditioner. remove contacts. wash off conditioner. wash face. wash body. FAST! like POOF and its over. hahaha sometimes even sing in the shower! Lol nice fun!
but when im bathing i always think alot. veryvery far..haha as in think very far. like death. I ALWAYS think about leaving my loved ones. i cant bear to! i love them too much. mamie dadie korkor eugene! frens too. its so scary..i dun everever wan dem to leave me or me to leave dem. but lifelife..its saaaadie. haai nvm i dun wanna think no more. =/
gotta rush homework AGAIN. hahahah its a routine laarhs. go sch. remedials. band. go eat. come home. use com. do hw. den slp. and all starts again..BOREEEEE-RING. ARGHhhhh hahah nvm tolerance. =) okie dokie. start of homeworking doing time! Burbyeee.
- lynloveseug - tooomuch.loveydovey.hunnybunny.harniedarnie.harniebee.
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9:14:00 PM
Monday, March 22, 2004
Hmm. i was jux chatting with Joyce today in school. i kinda asked her a few questions that jux popped into my head..lol i only remembered one of dem wad about being jealous? AHA! i asked her whether she ever ever does get jealous of others. hahaha dumb question uh?
well, I DO! I DO I DO I DO! i get jealous of pple. maybe its not jealous..its envious?! i dono. pple's figure. IM SO ENVIOUS of dem! whyyy why their body so nice..sob its unfair. ahah and the way someone can be so natural and everything. i wonder how they do it sometimes. seriously, i dun think anyone's real ard me. everyone has a mask on dem. including me maybe? i DUN EVEN NOE MYSELF WELL. i only know the 85% of myself..the rest is blank empty question mark.
and im jealous of err..how lucky some pple are. they just seem sSO forturnate. happy family. great frens and bf. goodlooking. lovely character. great studies. how did they do it! " i wonder hooow, i wonder why!.." hahah tat lemon tree song. yea i wonder why they are so lucky. but i think god is fair. they surely got their own bad pooints..so yup! I SHALL NOT PONDER OVER THIS NO MORE. hee
gotta go rush my hw now..super much to do. maths biology poa english socialstudies and phy test! OH GAWD. gonna die. byeees
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8:46:00 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2004
theres sch tmr and im still awake still online still alive still breathing still having the energy to enter an entry. okay im practically half dead but yea i have to get through this. end of the so called 'one week holidays'. its time for a new term! which means the olevels are getting nearer each day and im still the same old bloody idiot self!
seri0usly, i've been slacking too much since the beginning of sec 4. 2004. i dono why i JUST CANNOT STUDY. i jux hate sch so much now..the only thing to look forward to are my frens and eugene. i really dono wAD TO DO! save me someone cos ii need help terribily [ however u spell it]. sigh the schs' driving me crazy. "u drive me crazzzy..i jux cant breathe.." tat britney's song. im going bonkers here! ARGH shucks man jux shuckssssssss..
i really think i shouldnt be here typing this crap. i should be rushing my hw. but when i started one emaths, it totally made me felt like an idiot. out of 10 i think i only noe how to do 3? omg how am i gonna pass. hellooooo its EMATHS!! not amaths or smth okay. im so gonna die. life sucks too much sometimes..wanna die sometimes. but i cant bear to leave pple who are so dear to me..and its sad tat sometimes when u need someone so badly, they jux aint there for u. its not their fault anyway..
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11:54:00 PM
YAWNNS. today's sunday. tmr sch starts liao..sian half! NOOOOOO. stop this pls SOMEBODY?!?!?
i wonder why we really do study sometimes. i mean we spend hlaf of our bloody life studying..WADS THE USE. i mean its not wrong to study but its like HALF of our lives? i dunch understand..i guess this world really is too complicated .
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12:51:00 PM
Friday, March 19, 2004
didnt blog last night..lol
i was too tired la. my dad's bday. so we went ta TM's Seoul Garden to feast. YUMYUM..but fattening man! bet i gained 1 kg. BAH whatever..my dieting is failing. hahaha anyway im going out wif eug now. watching THE EYE! cooooll..the weather is frreaking hot.
i go bathe! ciao.
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1:36:00 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
goddddamn tired! sigh this march holidays are horrible. its like shit! u noe like going back to sch everyday..
one day can have up to like 3 LONG LESSONS. and they are BOORREEERING. *yawns* after this still got maths tuition! tu i ti on. lol try pronoucing it..haah
nvm..after olevels i'll be freeeee! weee..den i'll FLY. muwhaha but if fail den die lo..lol i hope i get good grades though. *cross my fingers*
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6:57:00 PM
Monday, March 15, 2004
finally got a new blog..arggh this sucks becos i dun even NOE whether this is gonna work. but i doubt so anyway..haaix. so stressed up with life. SIAN
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6:58:00 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2004
argh this stupid thing doesnt seem ta be working..damnit!
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11:17:00 PM
Well just started a new blog. haven been blogging anyway..kinda lazy and stuff. i cant be bothered la!
no time..olevels are here. tat means more studying more remedials less going out and less of fun! the stupid big damn donut. i hate it la okay..it sucks. stressed up and blahblah. spoils my life! haha basically, school sucks. life sometimes suck too.
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10:49:00 PM
