i hug my pillow, and make believe it's really you.

Monday, March 28, 2005

im back and i feel so darn good!! haha woohoo! good to be awy..
but im not really happy to be back. ok who doesnt like holidays right?

although i was the only girl, the trip was suprisingly not bad. haha would have been better with jilly ardddd.. (ey 31st march? :DD cant wait) anyway, the guys were good to me la. LOL.

so lazy to update, so here's a summary :
- draggy bus ride
- tiny hotel room. lol
- arcade and more arcade; 3000 tickets! haha
- pools and billards (those guys.. grr)
- caught the eye at 0115am!! i or rather, we almost died. soooooo tired. and their cinema is so cramp.
- theme park with irritating crowds and stupid rain. ok let me elaborate on this.. thing is, we queued for almost an hour for the stupid go-karts. (thanks to mr melvin seah who wants to try it) i even had to rent shoes which suck so bad just to take the ride. thennnnnn when it was finally our turn next, IT STARTED TO RAIN HEAVILY!!! !%@#&%$ how shitty can things get huh!!? bah anyway we skipped the ride after trying to wait for the rain to stop. lol and we got wet from all the running.. feels like 2.4km run! really. and i love the space shot ride =D they were funny when we were up there. hahahahaaha
- ripley's exibits; very interesting
- more arcades, billards and bowling
- mini shoppinggggg (:

err that didnt looked like a summary to me. aiyah whatever. hehe
back to topic, the food there is so ex!! and it's so damn salty. can die.
one scoop of cup ice-cream with chocolate topping costs S$8 !!! =o and its not like it's haagen dazz or whatever.. haha. OH and guess who i met over there!!!? u will never guess it. it's..
Yvonne and Dunjiu!!! omfg X100
waaaa i had the shock of my life man! and i think they did too. hahahaha i went like "DUNJIU!! (then i saw yvonne..) eh? OMG what are u all doing here?!" then he went "what are YOU doing here?" lmao!! his expression is so funny. you should have seen. anyway they look so sweet =) okokok enough.

im sooo tired. TUAS was so freakin congested. like jam for 3 hours.. kuku! thank god for discman, handphone, magazines, tv and FOOD.and poeple of course. lol i hate the weather in Spore.. so hot/humid. sigh
im tired but im going out tmr at 9 am maybe? aaaaaahh wanna quit my job but sch's starting in May! so how? stressed.

im missing the fun from the past days already. miss miss miss MISSING everything. badly.

self- indulgence ; <3 12:22:00 AM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

i suddenly have this weird feeling coming over me..
is there a word for it? i think there is. but i dont know what. anybody knows?

i think it's funny how some people dare to pursue their dreams..
even if it means ultimate embarassment or hard work? i totally respect them for that!!
because i dont think im up to it. im a like a pockpockkeh chicken =l
that's just too bad? somebody please give me some courage.
aaaah we'll find out our postings tmr!
haha i dont even feel scared or excited about it because im not even interested in poly now/yet.
sigh here we go again.. study study study, exams exams EXAMS. damnit how many times must we go through this? what do we actually live for? to study, earn money, get married, die and go heaven??!!??!? the end full stop . ?! i thought we should be having fun with our loved ones, enjoying every special moment? or enjoy life itself?

anyway that was just some random thoughts.

i hate it when those feelings come to me.

self- indulgence ; <3 12:13:00 AM

Monday, March 21, 2005

what a Great day today was (:
but afternoon was freaking hot lah.. i almost died-ed
perspire right infront of the fan.. my brother's fan suck x10 !!
and his chair too.. u should see the state of it.

wheeee tmr off again! mwuahaha im loving it
but im gonna feel damn sad on the 7th (my pay day)
oh bother, im living for today! lol righttttt
ah i found an old primary sch mate online today and im so damn happy!
missed him and everyone so much.. so much memories at the back of our sch bus =D u know how hard it is for me to meet even ONE of my pri sch mate on the streets.. the chances are a 1:10 ratio. now look!! look at the amazing things msn/friendster does! lol

hahaha i just found a DAMN funny video online
ahahahahahaaahaah here goes, just click on the link ;
http://media.ebaumsworld.com/index.php?e=useglue.wmv
okay im laughing but i feel so bad for him! seriously. the crowd laugh like as if the roof will drop -.- must be damn embarassing. lol but its really funny lah.. he's a politician u know?!?! hahahaha

LMAO look what ramli said.
INEQUALITY FACED BY MUSLIM WOMEN?!?!?! BUTO ARH IF DUN LIKE FUCK OFF ARH U.S.A. CB ISRAEL BURN IN HELL [SICK SICK says:
HE SURE GO DENTIST
INEQUALITY FACED BY MUSLIM WOMEN?!?!?! BUTO ARH IF DUN LIKE FUCK OFF ARH U.S.A. CB ISRAEL BURN IN HELL [SICK SICK says:
SCOLD LOTSA VULGAR
hahaahaha damn funny. okokok im not gonna be so mean and crazy.. STOP.

feel so shagged.
still, im gonna watch tv! haha bye
all of a sudden i feel like watching jap serials? (thanks to sab lah! hee)

self- indulgence ; <3 12:19:00 AM

Saturday, March 19, 2005

omg any idea how bored it can get staying home..
my bad. i skipped work =x best part is i dont need an MC! mwuahaha
i just felt damn x100 lazy but let me tell u how many off days i have coming up
alright here goes ; sunday, monday and from thursday to tuesday.
THAT IS LIKE 8 DAYS IN LESS THAN 2 WEEKS =o
ohh my money. haha my pay is miserable but i dont know whether i should get another job.
this is confusing and infuriating !! ARGH I HAAAAATE ^*&*%%$@
i really want $ to do alotalot of things.

actually some of the off days are taken because im going to malaysiaaa (yawns) i havent been there since forever.. like 2-3 years? used to frequent there.
and im going with all the guys!! (jilly, WHERE ARE YOUUUUU. but thank god ur sis is going.. wish u were here darling. really.)
im not excited about it yet but i hope it will turn out fun *fingers crossed*
its never bad to get away from work, and life itself.

im not looking forward to poly at all =l
if i had to choose, i think i'd rather work than study.
at least u dont need to take exams when u work.. exams sucks like effin (compliments of jilly. LMAO) much!

i feel like skydiving. haha
crap im going to sleep! talking bout sleep, my brother is still sleeping.
and i wanna catch the movie called Alot Of Love. or smth like that..

byeee

self- indulgence ; <3 3:11:00 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

argh im down with a flu.
and i reckon today is a badbad day for me

i slept like freaking late last night and i had to wake up at 830 for work
so im very tired.. and i have to keep a smile like this =D wide to serve those aunties *roll eyes*
then, FINALLY it's 6pm and when i was in the lift, i suddenly remember that i forgot to bring my keys.
fuck how bad can my day get?!?! :( so i went to sit at my void deck
looking at all those happy little innocent kids.. running around as if the sun never sets. all they do is play, sweat, laugh, fall down, cry and the end.
i wish i was as carefree as them. (not that im very troubled but being a kid is never bad)
anyways, i was alr feeling sick but it was SO windy at my void deck -.-
blahblahblah i think i sat for an hour before my dad came home *pouts

anyhow i think im hooked on KFC
i eat it for lunch/dinner almost everyday lol
but not today lah.. im gonna stop. its scary.

i feel like taking MC tmr
but hais.... nvm.
tomorrow will be a better day?
ok im out, goodnight.

self- indulgence ; <3 11:06:00 PM

Friday, March 11, 2005

last night, my mommie told me that she dreamt that she sent me to USA to study.. hmmmm

HOW I WISH AND WISH AND WISH
....

lol wishes never come true. even my mom was laughing at her dream knowing that it wont happen.
okay lah anyway life has been so normal. working as usual
but im gonna be working less! because my new supervisor that sucker, Best, wants to cut down on part-timer's job hours. like shit her!?! ok nvm.. i just hope she leaves soon if not almost all of us will be leaving. hoho! goodbye fox kids.

i dont know why i get a headache everytime i stay at home on afternoons.
the heat kills, even when the fan is right beside my head (ok not so near but u get my meaninggg)
i havent gone shopping for quite awhile! so just now i wanted to go shopping alone since no one is free but!! laziness stopped me.
i really cant stand myself sometimes. hahaha
should i get a jacket or shoes? ive been wanting one jacket.. but it seems so impractical. okay i shall not waste money on it. lol im gonna get shoes! yabadabadooooo

i need a break. i wanna go overseas.
$$$ ? OH AND $$ REMINDS ME THAT MY PAY SUCKS :(
and CPF had to make me feel worse.

self- indulgence ; <3 4:10:00 PM

Sunday, March 06, 2005

hahaha alrighto ive got two words to describe today - tiring yet fun
u see, i woke up at 8 and i slept at like ard 2am! omg

i was suppose to meet sab and angie at 9 for this free dance classes thingie because we wanted to catch the hiphop class (which was the FIRST lesson of the day. *grumbles*) BUT WE MISSED IT ANYHOW.
hahahaha all of us were late but also thanks to the rain which got us stucked and drenched =l
anyway we went in the next class which was lyrical jazz (:
it was fun! at least better then i expected.. hahahaha and the guy instructor is damn funny; his last step. LMAO but he's damn good.. very flexible.
street jazz and pure funk was too full. sad.

just as we thought we lost ABIT of our fats, we went to coffee club for a feast. HAHAHAHA aiyah nvm.. (consoling myself)
and smth funny happened at yoshinoya. the egg face BAHAHAAHAAHAHAHAWAHA oops. inside joke.
so anyway the movie, a series of unfortunate events is damn nice! go catch it ok? the baby is sosososo cute.. lol
my throat hurts more now thanks to Mr Pringles *yawns* ouch.

time to sleep! working morning tmr.. buhbye!

i love u girls =D

self- indulgence ; <3 9:10:00 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

all of a sudden, i miss my past so much.

the past when i was still a kid. the fun i had.. the no-work life. no complications. no relationships. the trips to everywhere. the friends i made. weiling xueling meiling xiaohui dianna bernard chelsea.. blahblahblah. the pillow fights. the hotel room. the rides. the last minute staying over. the people** at that time.
so sweet memories.. so pure, naive & innocent. sadly, only photos are left ?! i dont even have photos for some of those memories......

its amazing how time only moves forward, isnt it ?
funny how u look back on stuff and feel funny

AHHHHHHH..

I MISS EVERYTHINGGGGGGG :((

i miss aussie. and my cousie.

i wonder how pple get 4 points to get into hwa chong
are they human ???

self- indulgence ; <3 1:20:00 AM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

okay so the whole results thing is over =D finally
cant believe i got over the whole thanggg
i did much better than i expected myself to do but its not that good still lah.. lol
good enough for me.
dont expect too much in ur life.. happiness is what matters.
hearty cheers for pple who didnt do as high they expected. dont worry too much; this is not the end alright (:

anyway i bet everyone is SO stressed bout choosing courses now.. including me. it sucks because we have to make a 'decision of our life' which we might come to regret in the future. bleh
and like i mentioned in the previous posttt, REGRETNESS SUCKS LIKE HELL !!
im thinking of law or biomedical or i-dono-what-shit. hahahaha see how lah!
and filling up a 12 choices is a chore man =/

i queued like siao at tm cpf for the Singpass yst. a freaking total of 2 HOURS AND GUESS WHAT?! RIGHT, I DIDNT EVEN GET IT. #$#%$&% *insert swearings*
made me late for work at the veryvery right time ahhh (sacarstic)
well my new supervisor came yst! ahahaha
okok she didnt scold me of course but she i dont really like her.
her name is bestina. but she ask us to call her BEST. lol weird right
shes quite nice actually but she just doesnt seem click with us yet ? *shrugs*
maybe its called the generation gap she looks very old for her age =l

okay lah im going out today! i got two days straight OFF DAYS
mwuahaha feeling so high. ciao my friends!!

not a part of my life anymore

self- indulgence ; <3 1:00:00 PM